,Time to Check-in and Update
It has been a long time since I have sat at the computer and written freely. Yesterday a beautiful snow covered our favorite cemetery/park. Aimee (the cutest little puppy on the planet who is now a 3 yr. old dog) and I walked, played stick and ball, talked to each other, socialized with other's doing the same thing, and looked for the coyote. Others have seen her lately. We have not for a week or more.
I think it is time I talked more about aging. I would have to agree with whomever it was that said: aging is not for the faint of heart, or aging is not for wimps, or aging is for the valiant and courageous. I fully agree with all three! I think there is a moment in every one's life when they really GET it. I----me----I am not just getting older. But I am actually aging.
What makes us think (hope) that it really won't happen to us? Not the way it has happened to others we have seen, or loved, or heard about. I believe every one of us has a secret belief way way back behind our heart, that if we do after all have to get older, WE will be able to do it right. And by "right" I believe we mean, easily, smoothly, without trouble to others, with minimum pain and fuss. I also believe we expect to continue hurrying here and there, filling 12 to 14 hour days, keeping on top of all life brings to us.
Many of us pull that off. For a very wonderfully long time. Some of us feel ourselves beginning to slip here and here and chalk it up to a bad day/week/month/year. Too much stress and we have to just get through this stretch of time and all will be as it was.
My comeuppance has happened through my heart. Never would I have expected my heart to break. I have not had and hope to not have a heart attack or stroke. I have a heart that beats too fast all of the time and even at that does not beat a regular too fast. It is fast and irregular. Not terribly unusual. Many of us are on this particular journey.
Louise Hay says about heart: "Represents the center of love and security." Right. That makes sense to me. Especially the security part. When I get anxious, I believe my heart takes a huge hit.
Under Heart Problems, Louise Hay says," Longstanding emotional problems. Lack of joy. Hardening of the heart. Belief in strain and stress."
Now, doesn't that just give one a lot to think about!
Do I "believe" in stress and strain? Yes, I guess I do. Do I want to change that belief? Absolutely! Do I know how to change that belief? Well, now that is the question, isn't it? Do I know how?
Off course I do! Let me count the ways: hmmmmm--learn to laugh more; don't take myself so seriously; stop caring so much about what others think of me; play; remember the ways in which I am safe and let go of fears that I am in danger (of not being loved, financial disaster, health issues, world situation); continue to be an important player in my Gratitude Club.
Do you know about the Gratitude Club? Check the fall 2008 newsletter on my web for details. http://www.couplerelationshiptherapy.at/ Essentially, you send me a minimum of 5 things you are grateful for daily and I send you mine. Get every day off to a great, positive, impowering start.
So-----my first step, starting today, in letting go of stress and stain is to go to the food and wine festival. That should distract me a bit. My second step is to write today's gratitudes:
I am grateful for a full, restful, and dreamless sleep last night
I am grateful for a warm and comfortable bed where I rest, restore, dream often times, process, learn and heal
I am grateful for cello, piano, and flute music that I find healing and peaceful
I am grateful for my wonderful daughter and her family who have offered to visit if I am looking for love and support
I am grateful for the library where I can get as many books as I want, freely offered and of great variety
Off to start my day. I will write more about aging and hearts soon. Enough for this moment.
Write to me, phone me, eamail me, keep in touch. Your response, energy, suggestions, caring, are all appreciated.
Nancy
I think it is time I talked more about aging. I would have to agree with whomever it was that said: aging is not for the faint of heart, or aging is not for wimps, or aging is for the valiant and courageous. I fully agree with all three! I think there is a moment in every one's life when they really GET it. I----me----I am not just getting older. But I am actually aging.
What makes us think (hope) that it really won't happen to us? Not the way it has happened to others we have seen, or loved, or heard about. I believe every one of us has a secret belief way way back behind our heart, that if we do after all have to get older, WE will be able to do it right. And by "right" I believe we mean, easily, smoothly, without trouble to others, with minimum pain and fuss. I also believe we expect to continue hurrying here and there, filling 12 to 14 hour days, keeping on top of all life brings to us.
Many of us pull that off. For a very wonderfully long time. Some of us feel ourselves beginning to slip here and here and chalk it up to a bad day/week/month/year. Too much stress and we have to just get through this stretch of time and all will be as it was.
My comeuppance has happened through my heart. Never would I have expected my heart to break. I have not had and hope to not have a heart attack or stroke. I have a heart that beats too fast all of the time and even at that does not beat a regular too fast. It is fast and irregular. Not terribly unusual. Many of us are on this particular journey.
Louise Hay says about heart: "Represents the center of love and security." Right. That makes sense to me. Especially the security part. When I get anxious, I believe my heart takes a huge hit.
Under Heart Problems, Louise Hay says," Longstanding emotional problems. Lack of joy. Hardening of the heart. Belief in strain and stress."
Now, doesn't that just give one a lot to think about!
Do I "believe" in stress and strain? Yes, I guess I do. Do I want to change that belief? Absolutely! Do I know how to change that belief? Well, now that is the question, isn't it? Do I know how?
Off course I do! Let me count the ways: hmmmmm--learn to laugh more; don't take myself so seriously; stop caring so much about what others think of me; play; remember the ways in which I am safe and let go of fears that I am in danger (of not being loved, financial disaster, health issues, world situation); continue to be an important player in my Gratitude Club.
Do you know about the Gratitude Club? Check the fall 2008 newsletter on my web for details. http://www.couplerelationshiptherapy.at/ Essentially, you send me a minimum of 5 things you are grateful for daily and I send you mine. Get every day off to a great, positive, impowering start.
So-----my first step, starting today, in letting go of stress and stain is to go to the food and wine festival. That should distract me a bit. My second step is to write today's gratitudes:
I am grateful for a full, restful, and dreamless sleep last night
I am grateful for a warm and comfortable bed where I rest, restore, dream often times, process, learn and heal
I am grateful for cello, piano, and flute music that I find healing and peaceful
I am grateful for my wonderful daughter and her family who have offered to visit if I am looking for love and support
I am grateful for the library where I can get as many books as I want, freely offered and of great variety
Off to start my day. I will write more about aging and hearts soon. Enough for this moment.
Write to me, phone me, eamail me, keep in touch. Your response, energy, suggestions, caring, are all appreciated.
Nancy
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