Day Dreams and Night Dreams

Do you often have premonitions? Do you ever wonder if you are prophetic? Do you KNOW but simply don't know? Remember I said I thought I would come back from France a different person? Remember the blog I wrote about the 5 most difficult issues for a relationship to deal with? Well...

Less then a week after we returned from an emotionally and physically demanding and spiritually and soul soothing 2 week trip in France, I took my partner of 20 years, Clo, to the emergency room. She was diagnosed with metastasized cancer of the liver, bone, and primary source probably breast. Our worst nightmare, of course. I believe my falling apart in France, the day dreams and night dreams I was having before we left, the sense of doom that hovered over me and in my heart, were all trying to help prepare me. I missed the signals. I have done that before.

We are being incredibly well cared for by family and friends. A final diagnosis with all of the testing pulled together will be available Oct. 24. Next steps will then follow. Love and support, emotional and functional pour in. Thank you all!

I will do whatever I can to keep this blog updated.

This has not only NOT stressed the relationship but has tightened it, if anything. Clo and I know how to be a team, how to work together, how to take care of each other. We are blessed. And I hope whenever such huge stress happens to you, you too will know how to come closer to loved ones and care for each other. When times get rough, take a moment to ask yourself and be curious about what it would be like without this person in your life. Really not in your life any more. Remember that change happens in a moment. Take good care of what you have in your life. Nurture each other. The most precious commodity you have is time. It is way too short.

Hugs, Nancy