Home Again!

Clo is home again! Man! What a whirl wind week this has been. Truly believing she had only weeks to live, to today when she showered, dressed beautifully, watered the garden, went shopping with her sisters....she is tired tonight. Go figure.

I am enormously grateful to Marie and Louise for being here and helping with some of the responsibility, to say nothing of all of the cooking. How marvelous it is to have family, hers and mine. Again, we are so fortunate.

I am learning huge lessons in being in relationship with the ups and down, huge swings, uncertainty, kindness of everyone, with a partner who has cancer. I think she is dying. She says not yet. I am glad!!!  I get scared. I feel relieved. I carry tired and not knowing as a constant friend. I have learned to know the feeling of the sacred moments of honouring being allowed to walk beside my beloved as she transitions into whatever it is she has in mind for next. I have leaned to forgive myself when I feel overwhelmed and tired of it all. Did I REALLY sign up for this???? Maybe. Probably. I am pretty sure I did.

There is so much more to share. But I am being all to dinner!  (: Lucky me. Three French women to cook for me. How much better could it get.....Hugs, Nancy