Face the Waves, Trust Your Power

Individuation is all well and good. However, Clo and I are in this together. And I can feel the awe and respect that it takes to appreciate she has chosen me to share this journey with her.

We have had a wonderfully peaceful and quiet Sunday today. We sit together in the kitchen and share eggs and mango, we sit in the living room with Aimee beside us and listen to beautiful music, we sit on the front porch and watch the traffic go by. When she leaves the room I feel her absence. When she is in the room I find peace.

I think I have stopped struggling against her and her diagnosis and am at last becoming in the now with it and with her. Guests, family, friends have helped every step of the way. And as my daughter Lisa said a few days ago, "I can imagine the two of you need time together, Mom." She is right. I have found peace today and yesterday as well. I cherish the quiet time.

It makes sense to me that I went through such angst and have come to the other side feeling cleansed and newly able to be present and with an open heart. I am relieved to like myself again and settle into peace with this next part of our journey, her journey and my journey.

I think my words of wisdom that I want to share re; this current process of being in relationship with a partner who has cancer, is that it works to face whatever is presented and trust in yourself and the power and potential you and the universe can co-create. Face the good and the hard, together and as you must on your own. Trust there is love and wisdom surrounding you and guiding you. A huge lesson. I embrace hope, love, trust. I pass on my words and my process to share with you and appreciate your wonderful responses.

Hugs for now, Nancy